Fat Bottom Girls!!!

State: Depressed about my weight.

This photo is kinda blurry,Brooke took this of me one day...Its the only current picture I could find of myself (mostly bc I hide from cameras).  whoooh looking at it gives me motivation!!!

I have never been a "skinny girl" by any means, but I never thought I would be the "fat girl" either.  My daughter now 3 1/2 is no longer an excuse for (is there such thing as toddler weight?) baby weight.  I am tired of feeling uncomfortable in my clothes, and my own skin.  I am official mad at myself for the way I look in the mirror.  How could I ever let myself get 50 lbs over weight? I weight 32 lbs more today than the day I did the day I gave birth to my daughter.  Trust me I am not proud of these numbers.  But I think the only way I'm going to make a change is to be brutally honest.  No more hiding with these numbers and shame.  I'm READY!!! Ready to make a change.  I'm not going to risk my future pregnancy to be any more high risk than it needs to be.  TODAY readers, I am changing.  My plan is to be back into my high school weight by may!!! 8 months.  that's a little more than 6 lbs a month which is more than doable!!  Wish me luck and pray that God gives me strength, desire, and will power!!! 

Homeschool

Art time is her favorite!!

I was so scared when my husband came to me with the idea of homeschooling.  I had family members who were already planning on homeschooling their children, but they both have degrees in education.  I was so happy when I graduated high school with a C+ average!! Not that I wasn't capable of doing sooo much better, (in high school I had more "important" things to do than make good grades.  I found myself really having to check myself...would I be able to give my little girl and our children to come the education that they need?  Well i did some research, and of course in our day in age, I turned to the Internet.  There was so much about homeschooling, statistics, and other things that really striked my interest!! So with ALOT of thought and prayer, Josh and I decided it was best for OUR family!!!!

I picked a curriculum, Abeka, and we started early August.  I am pleased to say Brooke is doing soooo good!!! In one and half months my 3 yr old is sounding out words and doing addition!!! I am amazed at her and all she has learned!!! But the best part is, I get to see it all happening!! In between math and reading we get to go outside and water our veggie garden!! I would never trade this time for a two household income life!!! And can I just brag on my husband a little!! He works sooo hard for me to be able to stay home with Brooke and provide her education at home!! I am really having a blast, and know that the road ahead is not always going to be this shinny!!! But I am looking forward to the journey!!

Phonics w/ art time at home

Suppose to be watering the veggie garden but is watering Snookie instead!

Veggie Garden

The last few months I have been dreaming about having a vegetable garden.  The thought of me telling Brooke to go out in the back yard and pick the things we need to make dinner, I just think that would be so cool!!!  I was so happy when Josh surprised us yesterday with a trip to home depot to get the wood to build the frame an the soil.  Brooke was smiling from ear to ear. I have never been a gardening person so I am going to have to work very hard to remember to mantain, and even want to get out and do it...im hoping it will really interest Brooke and she will help too.  She loves watering plants and watching them grow at her Grandparents house so needless to say, im hoping for the best!!! Im pretty sure trial and error is going to be method we use.  Im open to all suggestions if anyone knows what they are doing!!!

Daddys Home 3 days in a row!!!

With Josh working so much lately, we barely have any family time together.  I was so excited when he told me he was off Tues, Wed, and Thurs!!! We plan on lots of family time and maybe even getting some things done around the house, like grass cutting and gardening!!! When I told Brooke that daddy was home for 3 days and asked her what she wanted to do... she replied, "oh mommy i have lots of money!! One day we can go to chucky cheese, then another day we can go to chick-fil-a, then the next day we can shop at Target, Walmart, and Kmart for a new toy!!!"  Yes she is only 3...I know, I know she is something else. She is very excited for daddy to be home, as am I!!!  Below is a picture of Josh and Brooke snuggling and reading a bed time story!!!